Monday after the storm

Today is still stormy and threatening but the weather has moved south and north of the Oklahoma State borders. Last night, while struggling with my programming code, I had a ‘time-out’ from my struggles. My rescue kitty, who lives in my converted patio room, asked to come in. She was terrified of the high winds, blowing rain and noisy lightshow going on just outside her part of the house. As I watched Masterpiece Theater on PBS, I held her and comforted her. At the height of the storm the local PBS channel had numerous interruptions in the digitally transmitted signal and even my comfort and reassurance could not calm kitty. She jumped off the couch and ran into my bedroom only to hide under the bed. No amount of coaxing could budge her. I returned to my program and only lost about 10 minutes of the program due to the storm. It continued to subside and the program concluded. I then switched to a local station to get an update on the intensity of the storms passing over the Oklahoma City metro area. The weatherman reported that they were dumping massive amounts of much needed rain and they were quite noisy but not terribly threatening and were moving out of the metro area. I returned to my computer, found the solution to my programming challenge and began to feel that I might be able to exit this course by the end of spring term which comes in about 3 weeks. This has been a very big challenge and I’ve only just begun to make any headway with data retrieval from the database through the programming. Each time I make a breakthrough it feels like the sun broke through the clouds. Appropriate, huh? Ignorance and suffering are merely clouds. Willingness is the key to pushing through the cloud banks that seem to surround me in a foreboding darkness. As I opened to compassion for my kitty’s suffering and fear, something else was opened within me to receive the gift of release from my own ignorance and fear – willingness. Willingness requires much more than it seems at first glance. Willingness requires trust and the chance of being totally vulnerable to outcomes. Willingness requires surrender of my tight grip on the control console and allows a steadier hand to take over. Willingness requires admitting that I DO NOT KNOW WHAT ANYTHING IS FOR. A real challenge for an ego! Willingness seems to exact a very dear price from my ego and yet, the rewards are so far reaching (they actually go on for eternity) that no amount of analysis gives my ego even a tiny glimmer of how rich and full those rewards are. My prayer for today: Thank you, God, for the gift of being open and vulnerable before you. Thank you for touching my heart with compassion and showing me how much you care for me even when I’m tightly bound in my chains of ignorance and fear. Thank you for your comfort and guidance. Amen
Originally posted on Blogger 4/27/09
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Not just Another Monday

I have been working on a book for the Hindu Temple of Oklahoma City. In June of 2009 the Temple will have an installation of several more Deities and it has been my privilege to work on some of the literature for the momentous event coming. I am learning about how much of Hinduism is the foundation for Christianity’s believe system, dogma or theology. I am interested, fascinated and yet, a bit overwhelmed with the Hindu rituals and how they relate to their (and Christian) forms of worship. I have been invited to attend this grand event and am inclined to attend at least a part of the festivities in order to learn more about this fascinating subject on a firsthand basis. I will let you know how this unfolds.
Originally posted on Blogger 4/20/09

It’s Monday and a Stormy Start

Haven’t been posting due to many things like a computer crash and rebirthing, Spring break and projects to do around the house. But, today is Monday following Spring break and am back hard at it. The weather patterns have changed from relatively calm spring weather to windy and stormy today through the rest of this week, basically. I’m now trying to learn about Facebook and MySpace networking sites. I’m beginning to understand them a little but still can see not much use for them. Hopefully, I will see opportunities for using the sites and then may set up an account and try to reconnect with people from way back. Don’t think it will be very successful and am not even sure I want to reconnect. Hard to tell who might ‘pop up’ out of the blue. Listened to ‘The Story’ on NPR about a young woman who reconnected to an old boy friend from high school only to find that she was no longer welcome in his life. Maybe I will find the same thing. Am in process of finishing up online courses and will finally have a ‘life’ after all this time. Won’t know what to do with myself. Later…
Originally posted on Blogger 3/23/09

Definitely Monday

It has been a Monday to remember and not for any good reasons. To begin, a computer glitch and then an hour lost over the weekend due to Daylight Savings time change (does it really save daylight?) and lastly a holdup and road blocks to getting the computer glitch repaired. I simply don’t know how long this will take to repair and get me back in the ‘groove’ so to speak. The only good thing about today is that I will be going home soon. Perhaps, Tuesday will offer more positive things.
Originally posted on Blogger 3/9/09

What a day Monday it was!

I haven’t posted for a while but decided to do so in hopes of unscrambling my thoughts. Yesterday, I was at the point of exhaustion all day. I went home from work and did a few chores then readied myself for a full evening of studies. I curled up with my text book and started to read in order to finish the final lesson in my current class so I could then start taking my exams and be finished by Friday at 5:00pm when this online class closes. At 10:30pm I awoke just long enough to turn off lights and crawl into bed. I overslept this morning since I had neglected to turn on my bedside alarm. I did manage to arrive at work on time with a little to spare but am amazed at the length of time I slept to recover from a weekend of lost sleep. One good note is that I was able to finish my last project in this online class and now have only one lesson to complete before starting my final exams. One bad note is that the next class starts Friday evening at 5:01pm. There is no rest for the wicked, I guess.
Originally posted on Blogger 3/3/09